steven is logan's supposed biological father. him and i were together two years... two years longer than we should have lasted. i felt sorry for him in the beginning and wanted to save him from himself. i couldnt imagine how someone so young (we were both 20 at the time) could throw their life away, living such a self destructive life style. i wanted to save him from himself but in the process lost myself as well. i too began living a self destructive life style but was unaware of how damaging it was until it was much too late. feelings were invested and hearache was being experienced daily. finally when we both couldnt take anymore we split but for whatever reason he still had a hold on my heart. i loved that boy so much despite all the reasons i shouldn't have. when logie was supposedly conceived him and i werent together. my pregnancy was something i made him aware of from day one. yet he wanted no part of it and i didnt want my child growing up in that atmosphere so i distanced myself from him. long story short we met up wednesday to discuss logan. basically it was a waste of time for all he answered my questions with was a " I don't know Mel." as though this were all new to him and he hadnt had time to think about it. we came to a mutual decision that we'd do a dna test next saturday and take it from there. more stress to fuel the fire. my actions are the ones that got me in this predicament. like everything else my past always manages to come back and bite me in the ass.
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